Jeepers where to begin. I thought about bullet points but that wouldn’t really help and lordy knows I lurve my bullet points to really emphasise something! LOL I have been a train wreck of emotions since around 2005 when I hit 30 and my marriage really started to fall down around my ears. This is a long list of what is currently on file at my GP’s office!
Sleep Issues
Actually since leaving my ex-husband I sleep VERY well and rarely have a disturbed night, but all the while the real crap was going on in my personal life towards the end of my marriage, I hardly slept, or when I did sleep I was restless and wake up in a pool of sweat. I still do wake up tired every single day though despite sleeping through the night, and I rely on Pro-Plus (caffeine tablets) to get me through most days.
Irregular periods
For the last 4 years (during most of the stress of my marriage and up to the present day) my periods have been either slim to nonexistant or like a massacre for 48 hours solid and nothing else. I can only put it down to stress because I’ve always been a 5 day girl … 2 slow days “coming on” with a heavy day in the middle, then a lighter day down to almost nothing before finishing. Since the stress started in 2005 … I’ve never had a “normal” period.
Physical Vomiting (uncontrollable)
Another thing that has actually stopped since leaving my husband, but I used to wake up every morning and be sick. I never stuck my fingers down my throat it was never a conscious thing and was 100% uncontrollable. After a myriad of blood tests, I attributed it to the stress of my living situation.
Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified (EDNOS)
This means that you fit MOST of the criteria for either anorexia or bulimia (etc) but don’tquite qualify for a diagnosis. It’s like not being close enough to your death bed to be taken seriously! At the time I was about 15lbs from being clinically diagnosed as anorexic, but despite my lack of periods, lack of eating and other symptoms (tiredness, vomiting, depression, anxiety etc) the doctor diagnosed me with EDNOS. I promptly worked hard to lose another 4lbs to “prove a point” – to myself though. So despite the fact that I severely restrict food and have major hang ups about my body, I do NOT have anorexia nervosa.
Anorexia
Yeah see this is where it gets weird. I do not have anorexia nervosa, but I am still anorexic because I still go through long periods where I feel very overweight, and I have have no appetite or no desire to eat food.
Stress
I was first diagnosed with stress in November 2006 after “the meltdown” which was a very public breakdown in the middle of the fizzy drinks aisle at Sainsburys. It came about because my then 6 year son (who has ADHD & Aspergers) was throwing a hissy fit that I’d said no to buying something he wanted. He then asked his dad … who said yes okay and put it in the trolley despite what I had said. It spiralled from there and resulted in me quivering on the floor and Sainsburys staff flapping and offering me cups of water until I stopped crying & shaking and composed what dignity I had left to continue the shopping.
Anxiety & Depression
Yeah, I tick all the boxes on the depression score as well, although this diagnosis came later on. I was put on 20mg of Citalopram which was increased to 40mg and although I’ve come off of it before (been weaned down) I am back up to 40mg at the moment (May ‘09)
And that’s me in a nutjob nutshell!
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